Texas Criminal for pete's sake contact the Motorcycle Safety Foundation as per this link (taking a wild guess as to which part of the US you're in here!) Click here - PLEASE!
Do it BEFORE you buy a bike please and take a Basic Rider Course, it's GREAT fun, teaches you heaps and ASK them about bikes to buy.
Please, please, please, for me, pretty please!
You're scaring me!!!!!!!!!
Amanda